Did you ever get into that song by Bright Eyes, First Day of My Life?
It's incredibly simple. Some of the lyrics go something like this:
This is the first day of my life.
I swear I was born right in the doorway,
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed,
They're laying blankets on the beach.
Yours is the first face that I saw,
I swear I was blind before I met you.
And he goes on with his little love story, all circling around the day they met as the first days of their lives. It's really sweet but it has a distinct indie tone to it. You either love it or you hate it. I happened to love it and played it over and over in my last days of high school. I guess at the time I was pretty desperate for a fresh start and having a *new* first day of my life sounded all too appealing. I'm pretty sure I shed tears to that song while I was trying so hopelessly to make it come true.
It's a little different now. I still sing it in my head all the time, but it's not such an emotional trip.
Now, it's really just fun.
For example.
At 3:00 this morning while Levi and I were going for a run through the neighborhood and stopped to make out in the park for a while. All sweaty and huffing hard. That would have been a great first day of my life!
Then, I sang it in my head a little later this morning when I rode my bike to the grocer [which is what I call Fry's because it sounds so much more romantic that way] to pick up some morning muffins for us. Watching the sun fill the house with light, the taste of cinnamon in our mouths. Yes yes, that too would be a fabulous way to start the rest of our lives.
I sing it in my head all the time, and I guess really it's just because I like thinking that way. I like thinking that every second is a new start. When I get frustrated or discouraged or I get the mean reds, I relish in the emotion for a time, and then the next thing that happens that I can appreciate?
THIS is the first day of my life.
And I start all over again.
It's just not a bad way to live!
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